The Window You See the World Through.
How do you see the world?
Is it through a clear lens, or is it one that has been jaded by past experiences still running your nervous system & life?
Our nervous system is continually picking up data. Integrating the world around us, with its prior experiences as the lens it views and integrates it through. Our nervous system gathers information and informs itself with what to do with this data with our past experiences. Trying, at all costs to prevent any past moments of fear, of trauma (little or big), of stress from happening to us again. Literally, living in the past. Responding as though those moments of stress, of threats are still happening. If we never stop to allow ourselves, and our nervous system, to fully integrate these moments of stress and fear, it will continue running with those defences up. Those reactions that saved us in the initial moment of fear, of survival, will colour our world. We will be run by the patterns created in those moment's of reactions. This, sometimes, why we find ourselves unsure to as why we feel we find our hearts begin to race or mind begin to drift in some of the moments life confronts us with. Those patterns are often buried so deep in our subconscious, that we don't even realise they are how we are engaging with the world.
"There is no fixed physical reality, no single perception of the world, just numerous ways of interpreting world views as dictated by one's nervous system and the specific environment of our planetary existence."
If we don’t allow ourselves to fully experience the moments of our past, in safety, in connection, we will never truly integrate those moments, and our world, the lens in which we see our world, will forever be coloured by our moments of disconnect. Of fear, of heartache, of belittlement, of powerlessness, of anger, of brokenness, of distress, of attack. We will live in defence of those moments. Ensuring we do everything we can to avoid those experiences from happening again. Ironically, often the most growth comes from those moments, if we choose to see them for what they are. Traumas that we are greater than.
That, among many others, this is the reason I walk down the road I do. Seeing who will be brave enough to join me in seeing the world unjaded by those moments that hurt us, that left us scared. Not by pretending we are okay, or that they were just a thing of the past but facing those moments head on. Allowing our nervous system, our energy system to know, we are strong enough. We are brave enough to feel those moments, and well, we don’t need to walk this earth in defence of feeling and those moments again. Unconsciously (& even consciously) doing everything we can to prevent those moments from happening again. Living in fear.
You have a choice. We all do. We can choose to be led by our fears or led by our heart. Which window would you rather look through?
dr Kathryn x